"I am the most comfortable in the truth" Glennon Doyle Melton
The podcasts that I am most drawn to are those of people who dare to live their truth out loud, the ones whose lives were altered due to the awareness. Who have made great changes into living authentic lives.
What I heard today, after you become aware and living mindfully, you have a hard time around folks whose lives are littered with lies. Or to be drawn toward lives who live on the surface of life.
Once I had unraveled all that was untrue for me, untrue lives don't hold my attention. I am not drawn or feel the desire to know more lies. I can't pretend to pretend to be interested.
And, I am more drawn to nature and its open spectacular self!
Enjoying all the different ways to spend time in nature, feels right to me.
I am always honored when others share their truth with me, or when we work to discover the lies they cannot see.
I had always thought that denial meant you knew, but denied it. I am now more believing that denial is not knowing a truth; but that it lives with you. If this makes sense.
It wasn't that my truth arrived when I was 46, but rather it lived hidden from me.
Although there were signs that I wasn't living true to me.
My feelings were not honored.
Choices often were not available.
I lived life on the surface.
Not wanting to know too much, not even aware of not being aware.
Looking back, I would get anxious when my inner self had the chance to be known.
I didn't know me.
But, didn't know that I didn't know.
The who I knew was a survival self and the beliefs of the church.
When the truth leaked out, the old me crumbled.
I was left without a self and yet as a self with wide open eyes.
To be made aware of your own truths is a remarkable experience. Typically it does come with drama, trauma, pain and sorrow. But, it leads to a life that has a wide open landscape of seeing.
I truly love being around folks who are wrestling with the truths in their lives.
Regardless of the truths content.
The realness excites me, and it feels like a real being connection.
I am more comfortable with the uncomfortable truths than with lives lived in pretending.